miserable,. down,. pathetic..

Label: - Rabu, 22 April 2009

hufht.

feel so worst,. gagal,. bnr2 gk mudah bgt bwt nrimanya trnyata,. i thought i was gud,. i thought i could pass it,. but i DIDNT,. 

i'm so bad at acceptance of failure,. i'm not gud at it,. apa pun,. in my life's goals or relationship with people,. i'm soo not gud at it,.

ak takut gagal,. i feel like the world hates me,. God hates me,. and i'm going to fail again and again,. :(

i want 2 reach dis,. i HAVE TO reach dis goal. But i'm scared dat i cant,. wat if the real thing is actually i'm not be able to reach dis goal,. i dont have it,. the skill, the brain,. oh maii,.

here i am,. back 2 the old me,. full with negative energy,. my friend call it >> pembunuhan karakter hahaa :(

they said, kegagalan adalah kesuksesan yg trtunda,. or its not dat bad, its just God has another plan 4 me, trust it,.

i hope dey r rite,. coz dats all is wat i'm trying 2 believe and trust rite now,. yeah, i have 2 move on,. i have 2 pass the 2nd exam,. i HAVE TO,.

okaaaayy, enough crying,. face the future,. mli dr niat yg bnr2 serius klu pgn lulus den usaha yg bnr2 maksimal trus doa ma ibadah yg bnr2 tulus n rutin,. bkn krn lagi butuh DY aj,.

yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuppppppppppsssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
semangaaaaaaaaatttt,.

>> mncoba ngebkin positive mind set,. heheeee,.

daaaaaannnn...

smoga smua keakinan n positif mood ini brtahan,. amiiiiiiiiiiiin,.

God,. pliiis help me dis time,. i really need you..

OH maaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii,.............

- Kamis, 16 April 2009

i'm definitely not feeling GOOD, WELL or OKAY.

oh mai,.

maag kmbuh, mual, diare,.

:(

smoga lulus.

AMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN.

(walo kecil kmungkinan.)

but i'm still hoping,. God i really need miracle,.

cm pgn bkin papa seneng,.

hufh,.

;(

Masi seperti yg dlu,.

- Selasa, 07 April 2009

trnyata kmu masi syg,.
trnyta kmu tak begitu,.
trnyta ak masi pny kmu,.
trnyata,.
sungguh ak tak ingin lg merasakan perih itu.
sungguh ak tak mau mrasakan kehilangan itu lg.

LOVING thiisss.. :)

- Kamis, 02 April 2009

hahahaaaaa uda jam 4.46 am masi blum tdur,. masi sindron insomnia niy dr sminggu lalu. parahparah. [tontonan wajib : MTV insomnia. hahahahaa :D]


eh td sambil memaksakan diri blajar sbnrny, scara uda sminggu lbh gk nyentuh bhn kompre itu lagi,. huuks,. ;(


trus krn kasur suda trlihat menggoda d mata iseng2 buka youtube,. nemu instrumental twilight yg si cullen main piano itu lho,. tp ini yg versi asli ny,. judul asli ny river flows in you,.


baguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuus bgtbgtbgt,.
dgrny bkin merinding,. romantiiis bgt,. [beuh, bahasany hehee :D ]


uda lama gk dgr instrumental bagus,. :)


[jd kgen si papa :( dr kecil d paksa papa siy dgr lagu2 gni. hehee.]


ini saia post,.


selamat mndengarkan sajaaaaaaa,.


God, i love dis!!!! :)




eniwei, td nyoba bahas2 soal,. hufh. SUSAH. Pasrah udah. Smoga lulus yAllah. Pgn bgtbgt bkin papa seneng, bangga. Amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin.

y sudaLah.

- Rabu, 01 April 2009

y suda lah,.
ak nyerah. salah terus. nyerah.
smua salah.
give up. nyerah.
sayang dy bgt.
tp kyk ny gk prnh cukup ak bwt dy.
gk prnh brarti, gk prnh cukup, masi aj ada yg kurang.
stres ak, stgh gila.
salah terus ak bwt dy.
i've tried 2 change.
tp ttp aj,.
he didnt see that,.
nope. he doesnt want 2 see that.
i'm not a perfect woman and he is not a perfect man either.
but i try,. i try 2 change just 4 him,. ONLY 4 him.
oh my, i'm getting frustated with this.
y sudalah,.
skrg jg uda gk brarti lg,.
uda gk mgkin lg..
ak gk mgkin lg brubh bwt org yg sama sekali gk syg ma ak,.
gk mungkin.

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