..me and my world..

“Anger is natural. It's part of the force. You just have to learn to hang out with it.”
Tori Amos quotes

akhir2 ini ntah knp, ak sering bgt marah2. Dkit2 ngomel. Dikit2 marah. its not gud. I know. but i really cant control it. i know, dr dlu ak jg antagonis n sinis orgny. i'm not proud of it actually. but now, its getting worse. Ak skrg bhkn bs terang2an nunjukin kesal sm org and sometimes it just because a small things that i should just let it. I hate my self rite now. i'm loosing it. i'm loosing my self.
i really need a better anger management. i really need help rite mow i guess. i need to control this anger before it controls me and destroy my life..
i am so pathetic and full of anger. i'm so not proud with it. please help..

ahahahhaaa judul blog ny kyk lagu d'masiv :))
lg nyemangatin diri sendiri skrg spy brtahan ampe 1 taon k dpn.
klu kt si mr. , yg salah itu mind set ak krn nganggap ini berat. Mkny yg kerasa emang berat. Salah ak jg yg pesimis dluan nganggap diri sndri bego'.
emang siiy ini emang berat, gk ada jg org yg blg co ass itu nyenengin. but kt si mr. lg, ini part of my life yg hrs ak jalanin.
smua org pny fase susah dlm ngejalanin hidupny. gk ak aj. cm wkt dtgny aj yg beda2. gk ada hidup yg seneng2 aj. pasti ada ujianny cobaanny.
ak down. ak stress. bljar aj bs ampe nangis saking takutny gk bs jwb pas d tnyin konsulen. saking takutny d hina. d marahin.
But eniwei, knp ak gk nyoba bwt jalanin ini smua sebaik mungkin aj. Bljr yg rajin, tekun. Gk mcm2. Selebihny pasrah aj sm Allah. At least i've tried. Ak cm perlu brtahan 52 minggu lg. Setahun lagi.
Setahun lagi bwt bkin papa mama adek2 n mr. bangga...
Cm setahun lagi kok.
Lgan klu jd dokter gampang, bkl bnyk dong dokter yg malpraktek. emang harus susah jd dokter ahahahahhh sumpah lah iah kedokteran ini, uda blajarny susah, biaya kul ny jg mahal. Jd mau gk mau klu uda trlanjur, nyemplung aj skalian. jgn setengah2. *depresi X(
aduuh ayoo semangat ms. nurshal!!!
LGAN PASTI SEBENTAR KOK SETAHUN ITU.
AK JG PASTI BISA.
INSYAALLAH BISA.
AMIIIIN YA ALLAH.

memang siih suda basi bgt bkin gnian,. hrs ny dr kmrn2 wkt lg sering2ny d tag ma org2,.
tp kmrn2 gk sgtu kurang krjaanny ampe bkin gnian,. heheee

y suuuwww mulaai aaahhh..

1. i love my life noow... with my family, my man, my bestfren.. :) and i really mean it..
coz i had a *damn* bad past and at dat time i think i'm not going 2 b able 2 move on 2 a nu life but i did,. :)

2. Sbnrny gk pgn jd dokter. Dlu pgn ny kuliah psikologi aj ato HI. kan cita2 dr kecil cm 1 "KELILING DUNIA" hahahaaa >> suka d ketawain laura :P tp krn si papa mintany jd dokter
(LUVDADDY) trus d iming2in klu jd dokter bs kluar negri ikut seminar.. den i SAID YES hahahaaa :D

3. HATE STRANGERS. yap! i DUN like strangers. ak jg gk prnh nge add strangers in frenster fesbuk bla bla bla,. walooooo tampang ny secakep apa puuuuuun... >> si pacar gk prcaya ini :P klu ada yg nge add y d app, tp trus klu d samperin d chat, y ak cuekin,. hahaahaa yeah, i dun like stranger. the first and the last time ak ramah2 ma stranger jg oktober kmrn d YM,. dan trnyata i already knew him in high school,. and he's my boy friend now,. hehehehee thnk God he's not a serial killer :P

4. i'm bad at remembering streets and numbers.

5. AKU = CENGENG. yaaaap!!! T.T

6. Wkt smp,. jaman2ny boyband. cinta matiiii sama the moffatts. hahahaa. norak.

7. i HATE BEING IN NU PLACE NU SITUATION NU CONDITION, krn d dlm ny bnyk NU PEOPLE = STRANGERS. i sometimes dun like 2 socialize.. *ak uda trlalu nyaman ma tmn2 yg ak pny skrg. so i dont need the new one.* >> different with my boyfren,. i know.. :(

8. Phobia ma kecoak, org gila n badut. have bad memories wit dem all. X(

9. Takut sgala hal yg brbau mistik, hantu, dll. walo i can see dem..

10. tiap naik pesawat slalu ngrasa bkl kecelakaan n mati. huufh.

11. i hate vanilla milk. yuuck! :( >> kecuali uda jd es krim hehee

12. ak..uhmm..pndendam. susah bgt maapin slh org.huufh.pgn bgt brubah.

13. i LOVE TRAVELLING. my dad always take me 2 somewer new every year since i was little.

14. ak trauma ma angka 3 in relationship. Ntah knp tiap pacaran gk prnh lbh dr 3 bln. Klu uda mu dkt 3 bln,. i always freak out.. mikir2 niy bkl brakhir gk yaaa.. huufh.. ;((

15. oyeeaaaahh.. cinta ballooooonn.. palg yg bnyaaaakkkk... :)

16. heran bgt knp org2 suka nntn twilight. biasa aj tuh.

17. gk bs hidup tanpa hape. hahhaaa. klu dompet bs minjem uang. ampe bela2in plg lg krmh bwt ambil hp walo uda nympe kampus. :P

18. emosi ak labiiiiillll. jus dont mess with me if i'm not in a gud mud.

19. Ak klu marah merepet ny panjang. hahhaa. ini kata anak2. palg klu ak marahny barengan ryan. duet maut bgt dah. :D

20. i envy models with their skinny body.

21. i REALLY love writing :) dats y i have blog. Gk d bc jg gpp. heheee really.. i juz love 2 write down my feeling..

22. cintaaa hujaaan. LOVE 2 c the raindrops. uuhm,. ^ ^

23. love making frens with guys den girls. cewek tuw ribet, gk bs d andalin klu ada apa2. heheeee. tp skrg pacar saja suda cukuuuuup... ;)

24. i heart angelina jolie. no,. no,. i'm not a lesbian!!

25. Cm pgn hidup ku mudah k dpnny n jalanin ny dgn brsenang2. tp gk mgkin yaah?? hehee :P

uhm,. dats it..
huuufh,. cape jg yaaah.. :P